wishing you peace

and all the best for 2015

white

car mix

Another one I had to throw away, because I just can't bear to listen to it anymore. About ten years ago a good friend and I put together a "car mix" with some of our favorites. It just hurts too much, brings me down even more.

six months

before I screwed up my life

Tossed the CD yesterday, couldn't bear to listen to the songs anymore.

i don't need no fancy

so this is christmas

up after abandonment

vigil

just watch it

http://www.makers.com/documentary/womenincomedy

so this is it

This is my new "start" (HA!) at 50. A one room apartment, after suffering a stroke at 48 and being abandoned by the "man" (another HA!, not that I am bitter) two years and three months later because of said stroke. But what the hell, after yesterday's quote, I'll consider this new place to be a mansion. Still waiting for my bed to be delivered, that's why you see a glimpse of the inflatable bed (thank you, my dear brother and sister-in-law).

when you go wow, just wow

I found this quote, sitting, as I do these days, alone in my apartment, and just said "Wow!" out loud, to myself. It gives me a lot to think about, maybe it explains why I'm so utterly alone today, as the quote describes practically my whole life, from childhood. I have *always* felt I have to explain myself and prove my worth. So maybe I needed people to walk out on me, or walk away myself.

The moment you feel you have to prove your worth to someone is the moment to absolutely and utterly walk away.

-- Alysia Harris

start here

memories

the walking dead - reality

outside matches inside

stille

30 minutes before sunset

surroundings